Nicholas: I literally don't care. I don't care if he hates this, if my mom hates this (she will, for her own reasons), if my sister hates this (she will, for her own reasons), if my friends hate this (they also will, for their own reasons). I LOVE this. With all the might my puny little human body can contain. And yeah, even as it is "just for me" I am going to allow my love to be felt by others, so they can feel allowed to embrace their own too, and to know that someone out there they might have forgotten about (or wanted to try to) may still deeply care about them, infected at the deepest level with their own magic
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bug visits: dragonfly, crane fly, firefly
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solitary bees, yellow sac spider,
Cheiracanthium
In 1970, two respected Harvard scientists published a study of five patients with necrotic skin lesions. "All attributed the lesions to spider bites acquired indoors … None of the patients actually saw a spider bite him." Cheiracanthium mildei, a buff-colored spider confusingly called "yellow sac spider" was a suspect since it was the most common house spider in Boston at the time. To do them justice, the authors didn't publish their conclusions until they had seemingly confirmed Cheiracanthium toxicity with guinea pigs, about half of which developed lesions after experimental bites. However, to date no human bitten by an authentic C. mildei has developed any lesion, and a 2006 study of 20 verified cases (main symptom: bee-sting-like pain) should kill this belief – but it won't! I'm sure yellow sac spiders will stay on "dangerous spider lists" for years to come.
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