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sugars and temptations
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not all carbs are bad
not all fats are good
volkskrankheiten sind mit-Lebens krankheiten, die symptome werden erst im hohen alter sichtbar
the brain is a ravenous consumer of glucose
I want to bring a few of these thoughts into a linerar form. It is the interplay of chaos map and linear text that is most valuable.
how does this apply to
manage underlying anger, dont internalise anger:
integrate, power-fuel
big T
I feel like I am walking on eggshells when I share my love life with you. I don't fuck around in a disgusting way. It's not just disinterest from your side, it is some sort of repulsion and I feel actively shit, because I actually spend half a day considering if you are right. YOU "fall in love" and fuck strangers constantly, I never judge. You judge non verbally by telling me I was oversharing
nothing changed in the way that I regret my part in the alvaro inciddent. but I do have to get rid of one thing: It is really hard to keep track of your love life and to judge the importance of people correctly. so had A been and looked like the monolith of a partner, I wouldve had the sense to treat him like sth sacred and not like something to play with, even while drunk. You are very quick in calling them "the One" and thinking about babies (which you where telling me regarding alvaro after three weeks of dating him). I love that I am a person of trust to help you sort through these messes of life. It isnt a two way street at the moment. and as much as I love being there for you, I shouldnt unless you are that for me. You should explore what it is that it is that makes you react like my grandma when I talk about 5ex. thats for you to figure out...
you seem to assume a dirty, Immoral approach to my dating life... that is so dismissive of my process and really disqualifies you for sharing about these sensitive matters
your insistance on greek food and olive oil being bad or not the greatest seems to have ulterior motivations... because they are enjoyable, you end up being arrogant and dismissive. when youll visit I am thinking to only take you to foreign food so that I dont care about your judgement. or just go where I like eating, but what would even be the point of taking you there? don't see it as a competition - chose to enjoy, not to compete.
dad / life
my success is mine. I've turned out all right inspite of him. and I love him.
feel everything, It needs to be processed
making me emotions manager to my parents,
why did I have to console my crying mother so often?
tangling up of my wants and assuming what dad wants.
mom
involving me in her relation issues and making me emotions manager to my parents
the notion of not being enough, performance-love-relation
proactive anger = ambition
visualise a healthy happy Konsti, who doesnt feel like he is letting himself down
the anxiety comes from not having a direction
not having direction comes from giving up on ideals before you even tried. courage may be stiving for an Ideal when that ideal seems overambitious. .
as simple as that - direction is having a story
dissatisfaction and all the shitty feelings and habits
direction and Why are identical
not having a why Inadvertendly makes you a worse person. the waves throgh you around, you do thinks in reaction not after thought
as trajectory is what counts, not having direction makes you a worse person, is a conclusion that I am coming to
conclusions
you cant blame the child in me for feeling invalidated, unsupported and unseen
after what I powered though with mamá I need to remember: nothing of value is too hard for me to attain. nothing is too hard to acchieve. everytime you say "I havent yet because it is too hard" your Insulting your own proven resiliance,
incredibly palattable and a load of ketchup on everything.
positive inputs
"half a year of consulting would make you a way better story teller / presenter"
acknowledgements
encouragement is magic
my anger is valid.
explore
anger and
do something about
it. develop.
Integrate
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the way I loved mama, and the way I chose to care for her while she was passing, was right. not weekness, not reverting into comfort, but character and strength. I sat and smiled in the face of personal and a loved ones desaster. the devine force within me. love and patience in the face of death.
hypothetical situations and thinking exercises:
asking James for some advice as a person who doesnt jugde. It solicited positive feelings of being able to receive adviceand open up about the specific help I need