Woolf, To the Lighthouse, "The Window"
"For now she need not think about anybody. She could be herself, by herself...To be silent; to be alone. All the being and doing, expansive, glittering, vocal, evaporated; and one shrunk, with a sense of solemnity, to being oneself, a wedge-shaped core of darkness, something invisible to others" (Woolf, "The Window," Section 11).
Here, Mrs. Ramsay finds a moment to herself after having devoted her daytime hours to fulfilling her domestic duties, and to prioritizing the needs of her family and their guests. Her moments of solitude and introspection remind me of the end of Mrs. Dalloway, when Clarissa excuses herself from the party to be alone. In this scene, Mrs. Ramsay visualizes herself as a "wedge-shaped core of darkness," which seems to recall a preservation of the self and simultaneously an annihilation of the self. It is curious that she associates this “darkness” (which sounds negative) with freedom, peace, and stability for inner self…