And when she did that, Mariam swooned. Her eyes watered. Her heart took flight. And she marveled at how, after all these years of rattling loose, she had found in this little creature the first true connection in her life of false, failed connections.
In Chapter 35 Mariam finally realizes the intense love she has for Aziza. Up until this point in the novel, Mariam has wanted to create as much space as possible between herself and Laila and Aziza. This quote, where Mariam finally allows herself to feel love for Aziza, marks a significant turning point in her character. By recognizing the “false, failed connections” in her life, she acknowledges that people who were meant to love her in the past did not extend the affection she felt she needed. Mariam has finally found true connection in Aziza.