"Under the strain of this continually- impending doom and by the sleeplessness to which I now condemned myself, ay, even beyond what I had thought possible to man, I became, in my own person, a creature eaten up and emptied by fever, languidly weak both in body and mind, and solely occupied by one thought: the horror of my other self" (pg. 1051 kindle)
the idea of languid and weakness (across 19th C texts) is a larger pattern of moral-physiological wasting (and also sex); connects moral actions to physical actions