Please enable JavaScript.

Coggle requires JavaScript to display documents.

dislike school OIP (3), imagination, being good people will love me,…

- - - - if i block in my mind
        
        it gets blocked
  - - - i am working as a developer
        
        i think this to protect self
        
        but i never thought like a software developer or a person who did not know software developer when i was a software developer
        
        this could be because i might be taking decisions which others could do
        
        but this was always with the lead right
  - - - i did not want to take the responsibility because of the way of guilt i am trying to avoid at all cost
  - - - like work change
        
        like money investment
  - - - to change all of this i need to do affirmation
  - - - I fail obviously
        
        i dont have to be good in every game exactly
        
        i just need to have similar experience and play it
- - - - he formed alliance with me
      - it was great success
  - - - he formed alliance with me
        
        browser was created
  - - - it can be meet kevin
    - - andrew jeikh
    - - graham stephen
  - - - if i know what i want the battle is half over
      - if i make up my mind to do whatever to get what i want then it is 100% over
    - - i attended the interviews
        
        was very innovative
        
        reached decision to quit and join very quickly
    - - i created so much free time for her
      - this led her to watch the tv dramas and get used to those dramas
      - she did not work there she was simply resting there
      - i did not let her work also and again on top of it i allowed her to say all bad things about me and be ok
      - she was let idle and i allowed her to say bad things about me and my family
      - what they like to do
        
        she likes photography
        
        she like design
        
        she is good at teaching
        
        he is interested in politics
        
        he is interested in doing the task with sincereness
        
        he is interested in emotional stuff and learning new things
- - - - two people thinking towards one goal
      - telepathy
        
        me feeling the impact of their thoughts
        
        their thought registering in my mind
        
        my thoughts registering in their mind
        
        more thoughts registering
        
        many thoughts
        
        imaginatination
        
        when i was in the group with don, suresh, sandeep, how much i grew in power
        
        when i am with sruthi how bad i become by getting her out
        
        fighting
        
        hitting
        
        if everyone is extended show of one man
- - - - definite purpose
      - self confidence
      - initiative
  - - - knew who could accomplish it
      - let them create it
  - - - he rejected me
      - but i thought i could learn lot from him
      - maddy asked but was denied
      - i used to come by car just for having to talk to him
  - - - i can imagine rich
      - i can imagine happiness
      - i can imagine good
      - i can imagine propserity
    - - looks more like combining things
      - examples where i combined and it worked
        
        first where it did not work
        
        bringing them together did not work
        
        instead of being friendly it was a chance they lost
        
        they had to help each other but that was completely misused and both were like i am entitiled and it did not work
        
        combine a person who thinks he is not entitled me and a person who thinks it is entitled it works
        
        combination b/w me and Rajesh
        
        both wanted to grow but both wanted to be shown as best
        
        sandeep me suresh and don
        
        not competing for each other worked
        
        think of getting green card
        
        get a job and ask works
        
        reached kk worked
      - combination with imagination
        
        when fights come it is because of imagination right
        
        i imagined being in software in infosys
        
        he understood the difficulty of finding a girl
        
        he told to find something in technology
      - rearranging old ideas into new combination
        
        curiousity
        
        to understand how things are working
        
        i know how kubernetes works
        
        like what is a service
        
        but why a service, separately
        
        why cant they expose something in the pod like an attribute
        
        what is a pod
        
        but the question or curiosity that is missing is why
        
        how GC is got
        
        why it cannot be had like this
        
        where i convereted old ideas into new combination
        
        varada did this
        
        he took steel experience and brought that to software , assembly line
        
        i have an it experience
        
        my experience
        
        IT
        
        Pyschology
        
        brain
        
        socio-psychology
        
        emotion
        
        finance
        
        imagination
        
        interview process
        
        imagine you already did and you are telling a story out of it
        
        while buying a product
        
        imagine the owner
        
        how much it cost to buy the business today
        
        3 more items...
        
        this can be developed in own mind
        
        if someones mind is already developed ally with them
        
        there are deficiences
        
        in seeing the negatives
        
        she can provide that
        
        in real estate
        
        suresh
        
        in stock market
        
        maddy
        
        naveen
        
        when asking someone of any favor
        
        need to see in imagination if i am him why would i do it
        
        why would she want father to come here again
        
        he could have asked based on the difficult times
        
        based on the fact that i am important to clien
        
        telepathy
        
        i made good comments and i knew it and i communicated it to him obviously and that is what he told
        
        opportunities i missed
        
        3 more items...
        
        will grant favors when benefit for a third person
- - - - so every idea that i received i accepted
        
        i accepted too many visitors
        
        she knows i can be changed because she does it to me
- - - - think i am going to be succeful
        
        will get success
      - even games i have played several times and i know it
- - - - self confidence
- - - - from where everything comes
- - - - i liked what you do because of the effort you put
- - - - i was made to feel guilty if i ever did not take care of them
        
        did not bring them to her mothers house
        
        i should have been taught to grow well in life and understand and not made to feel guilty if I don't do things to them
        
        what i am teaching viaan that it is not ok to talk to my family
- - - - i said to myself i dont want money
      - i told myself i just want love
      - i told myself that love is greater only when it is sacrificed
        
        i felt guilty that i did not take care of mother when i knew she is going to die in few days
        
        i felt guilty because i started thinking of the positives of what will be there if she is not there
        
        i thought if she is not there i will not be constrained from doing anything
        
        i thought no one is going to stop me out of fear if she is not there
        
        i thought no one is going to shout like her after she is gone
        
        i thought i dont have to be in shame because of all this shouting
        
        i thought i am going to live a peaceful life
        
        i became guilty because of these thoughts
        
        i felt i have not done any work when she is at home and since she was not taken care well by him and us she got cancer because it grew there because of neglect
        
        i felt guilty that i should have atleast taken the plates and put it
        
        i felt guilty that i did not buy her the bettle leaves when she asked
        
        i said promisely i wont do it in life again or i will die
        
        i felt that she was behind happy going to temple and she did not enjoy the jolly movies that father would take
        
        i thought if i be with her and do for her i would be very happy even if she leaves
        
        i was trying to find the mother whom i could do everything but she never knows that i did and that is going to be the way i am going to settle this guilt
- - - - prabesh
        
        boundary on work
        
        clarity of work
        
        helpful
        
        empathy
      - harish
        
        pushing for his work to be done
        
        not respecting others time
        
        empathy?
      - sudeep
        
        trying to protect his task
        
        helpful
      - mitesh
        
        micro management
        
        because of higher management
      - abhishek
        
        trying to manage both sides
- - - - she is not following any boundary and destroying
        
        it should be clearly no and no correct
        
        it is fine if it ended in not talking
        
        i have seen in small days that people fight
        
        i have seen it end indefinitely
        
        reason is otherwise there will be more to come
        
        if we are reactingly extremely
        
        either we need to change
        
        or we fine with it ending either ways
        
        or the other person thinks it is ok to do anything with us
    - - And told i am sorry immediately
    - - i apologized to my offshore
        
        They were not respecting me
        
        i was either speaking in blaming tone
        
        This was i let them be in that state
- - - - did not say anything
      - what could i have done, i should have made her say that and tell her this is not correct way of saying or should have thought about it seriously and taken necessary precaution
    - - sinking feeling in the chest
- - - - we dont have control over what others do
      - we dont have control over life
      - we dont have control over parents
      - we dont have control over family
      - we dont have control over economy
      - we dont have control over money
      - we dont have control over stock market
      - we dont have control over most things in life
- - - - there is intolerance
        
        she moved away
        
        why would she move away
        
        if she willingly came
        
        she was staying with them
        
        she justifies that
        
        she trys to be safe from them
        
        she doesnt have source
        
        every interaction she sees as being taking away from me