HEROINE RETURNS w/ THE “THING”
TO BENEFIT THE ORDINARY WORLD
(Is this “Thing” the perspective that memories are not a thing of the past, but live in the present?
Living in the now, they can only be remembered in the present-that’s how it works! Learning to live with them, in acceptance [5 stages] gives one or them the space to live in the here & now.
Pushing memories away “where moths & rust destroys 7 theives break in and steal”...away at the stores, leaving lack & ruin and parts of oneself disintegrated “where moth and something destroy...and either looking like ruin/lack or overcompensating for it
Wellness does not = painlessness.
Painlessness = Anesthetized
Anesthetized does not = Wellness
Anesthtized = Can feel Nothing or Dullness or Dimness
Dimness or darkness does not = Light or Enlightenment
there’s no life, no learning without enlightenment,
no color without light
White is the concentration of all the colors present in light reflect back into the world, whereas Black is the total absorbtion of light, wherein no frequencies of light get emitted
Alessandra is the “Defender of Men”....guilt that i didnt defend is a tiny BPD factory
Black holes danger exists at the event horizon, ie no way back to it’s not so much that life with BPD is a toggle switch of survival but more that if I can pick up on a shift in gravitation field, or a bent sound wave I can slow down the effect by stepping away and cutting a wide girth from the Black Hole.
The ghosts are like gravity, has the power to warp time and space, but if I can provide the time & space for the ghosts /memories then everyone can calm, there’s room for all.of acceptance
[as per tc: it’s a bit like Yukon Cornelius who brought Bumble back to the village. He was such a scary monster but who’s teeth were hurting him, so he seemed convincingly enraged. Once defanged he was brought to the village and turned out to be rather sweet and quite helpful. Mama had a Bumble too but her bumble didn’t receive the help or it proved ineffective]
I thought learning would save me but did it didn’t
I thought mental health care would save me but it didn’t
What saved me was love, light and the space for the
memories to come along for the ride. (But it can never drive)