why do i feel i lost my music passion
burn out
got bored
sarting a duo with jack
something else take all my attention
discouraged
selfsabotage
fear of futur pain
thoughts of giving up
thoughts it will never happen
wedding
sick of my job
vision of the future
how it work working creatively in a duo
worked up to 30 extra hours right before
because it didn't feel evolving as quick as i wanted
stopped doing active sport and 5 am wake up
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big wierd and inexplainable back ''problem'' in mai 2019??
i'm functional addict to creativity
everything else doesn't matter
i need my creative fix
my creative session need to be awesome or i'm desapointed
*the only moment that it comes back are
awesome beats re-listening
singing out lound and falling into a riff of impro in wich i can see... have the vision of how the concert is going to be like...
A tear comes up realizing how much I hate myself
Need something more
My brain is sick of working without result and without confidence or self belief
Just not fun without jack
I wanna share the process with someone with his talent and energy
In creating music
In building things
In renovating things
a project is what pumps me