"Mariam regretted her foolish, youthful pride now. She wished now that she had let him in. what would have been the harm to let him in, sit with him, let him say what he’d come to say? He was her father. He’d not been a good father, it was true, but how ordinary his faults seemed now how forgivable, when compared to Rasheed’s malice, or to the brutality and violence that she had seen men inflict on one another." chapter 41
mariam is scared to let him in because she had trust issues due to the fact that he was a bad father but in that moment he seemed forgivable in comparison to other men including rasheed