Anxiety Map

Friends

work

Family?

Everyone hates me

No one wants to talk to me

I'm bad at my work

my bosses think badly of me

my peers think badly of me

my students know I'm a fluke

I'm so underqualified

I'm a waste of space

I'm a waste of money

If I don't do 150%, then I don't deserve to be here!

I'm ripping people off, so I'm a terrible person

there are so many people more qualified than I am

I should be doing something else

I should be doing a job that's career-related instead of just tutoring because the pay is good

I'm stealing money from my friend's family because I asked for a raise when I don't deserve it

I should be in a different field entirely. Did I make a mistake?

No one wants to hang out with me

When I hang out with people I should let them go home ASAP so that they don't have to deal with me any longer than they have to

I shouldn't bother trying to make new friends or to get closer to acquaintances because they won't be interested and I'll just be bothering them

I'm leaching off of my parents

even though I love my mom

Even though I hate my dad

School

I don't deserve to go to this school

I should've been able to get into a better university; now I'm a failure

mental health

My case isn't even that bad so I'm being dramatic

My professors think me incompetent

When I cry I'm being a pussy

When I don't cry then I'm being overly rational and sabotoging myself

I know how tiring it is to take care of people who are depressed so I'm not going to try to talk to other people about it

I'm wasting all of this time and money and not even working that hard at it. My 20's are going to pass me by and i'll have nothing to show for it.

I know intellectually that anxious thoughts are irrational (and just thoughts), but I can't just let myself go

I've disappointed expectations

I'm the ugliest in this family

I'm not worth my parents having come to america and given up their own lives

I can't even take care of them when I get older

I don't want kids so I won't ever give them the grandchildren that they want

I'm narcissistic for feeling like I'm good enough to keep a romantic partner around

dissatisfaction

I shouldn't invite people out

I talk about boring or depressing shit and ruin the mood

I always talk about myself because I'm so selfish

Jenny only spent time with me this morning because she slept over last night and she didn't want to just leave.

I ruin so many conversations because I'm judgemental or I give unsolicited advice

I procrastinated pretty hard today

physical

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the money I make is still not enough to cover tuition. I might have to borrow from my parents.

I'm tired of living in this huge house

I can't even have a light bright window to keep any plants

my shoulders and wrists hurt and I'm stressed that I'm doing something wrong or otherwise harming my body and screwing myself over for the future

if I'm overqualified, then I'm wasting my time
If I'm underqualified, I'm wasting other peoples' time

too immature

dress weirdly

pretentious for being highly educated

dumb for not remembering any metabolism

I could've made a lot more money in tech

I wouldn't have survived CS though lol

I'm being a hypocrite for telling people to open up to me yet not opening up to others

played games on my phone to ignore my anxiety

fucked up my hands more
fucking up my eyes bc staring at small screen in a dark room

I should be grateful to live rent-free right now

I want to live alone!! Feel selfish

Feel kind of like a loser? But I don't think that of other people so why am I being so judgmental

I'm playing into the harmful notion that good college = everything

why should I have to prove that my life was worth living?

I'm sabotaging their future because I can't teach them properly