Trying to Regain Lost Hope (Excaping the Past (Planning to End His Life…
Trying to Regain Lost Hope
Excaping the Past
Becoming Someone New
Wants to to show everyone his real feelings but finds it hard to
Feels bad for people after that being their "last" interaction
"I'm not really sure why but I feel terrible off of the sudden" (Quick 87)
Planning to End His Life
He wants to escape the pain
Feels as if he will feel the same way his entire life
Feels hopeless with no support, can't open up to people
He feels as killing Asher would allow him to escape from what Asher has done to him.
"How I wanted it to stop. How he intimidated me. How he psychologically tricked me. " (Quick 239)
Gives him his phone number and goes out and helps Leonard over come things
Leonard opens up to someone
"A promise is a promise" (Quick 262)
Giving Away Presents
His way of saying goodbye to the people he cares about
Shows the importance of Herr, Walt, Lauren, and Baback
Hopes someone will stop and help him along the way
"I kind of promise myself that I won't kill Asher Beal, nor will I off myself, if only Walt just says "happy birthday" to me one time" (Quick 29)
Wanting help from Lauren
"At least I'd know one person was pulling for me in her own special way"
No support from mom
Negative conflicts with people when reaching out for help; girl on the train
Fear of the Future
Herr shows his sleeves to a pink triangle showing Leonard he is gay. This shows Leonard that going through things now doesn't mean he will have a bad future
"I try to unlock his mystery in my mind, creating all sorts of suicide-inducing scenarios, inventing his past" (Quick 14)
Hopes Herr has been through some kind of pain to show that it gets better in the future
Following people on the train
Following people on the train to see what their lives are like. He makes the connection that will be what his future is like.
"Observing them gets me so down; makes me feel like I never want to be an adult" (Quick 55)
Letters From the Future
Gives him hope that the future will be the way he wants it to.
Keeps him living
Life in outpost 37 with wife and kid.
"Just hold on, okay? Please" (Quick 100)