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How Do We Heal From Here? - Coggle Diagram
How Do We Heal From Here?
The hate
Our relationship
Our country
Dependancy
Need
Desire
Hunger
Uncertainty
Our brokenness
Our hearts
Song about
Analogous to?
My relationship
the good
Dwayne
Unconditional love, desire and affection
Too far away
Not an ideal, but a workable sexual match
We're both bottoms with limited topping ability
he wants to top me
Teri
Liked me (Love never felt like an appropriate word for either of us) for who I am and all that I am
Sense of adventure
Sense of wonder
Joie de vivre
Caring and concerned
Extremely open minded
With Rachel
Wearing Korean facial masks
Alison scarfing the pot brownies despite our warning
Practicing walking in heels with Alison at Rachel’s on New Years day(?)
Thinking a double date with our other dates would be a good idea
Finding out it wasn’t
With Celeste
I cheated on her
Devoted mother
I felt shut out after we had our daughter
no sex
less attention (I felt more so than should be expected)
was I being selfish? I don't think I was
I was never envious of my wife's love for ouur daughter - I think it's wonderful
Supposed life partner
the less good
Dani
Getting drunk with you and friendly strangers at SRO
San Diego trip
Watching you sleep with your hair radiating from you
Beautiful
Peaceful
Still - Calm
Sleeping nude?
Rope bondage class
BDSM Sex Party
she was buckwild
I was reserved
She took a man home and invited me to join
I foolishly didn't
I feel unresolved with her
She claimed to think I was suggesting we just be friends and agreed
I wasn't suggesting it and attempts to clear up the situation failed
After that she seemed to ghost me
Lori
Refused to follow the rules
Had to be drunk to have sex with me
I still don't know if I was anything more than someone to use
bad news
Occasionally tries to contact me
Sista Friend
We don't communicate well
I don't feel like I can trust her
She seems to evolve(?) to desire what ever I am and are capable of
She's a size queen but wanted me despite having a slightly larger than average penis
Now that I have embraced my femme nature, she claims to want to peg me
She was in town a year or two ago and implied she wanted to get together. I didn't pursue it because she also claimed she was there to save her daughter and her grandchildren from an abusive relationship. I worried that she was hoping I would help. I don't think it would have been appropriate, and I doubt I would have been much help. I would have felt further diminished in her eyes
had I tried and failed
We had a disasterous one night stand
ED was a problem
My promises to Rachel were a problem
My concern for my recently widowed dad
Issues
Rachel and Celeste feeling I abandoned them
My feeling abandoned by everyone
The idea of being used and of using someone
Societies expectations of men and women
America
Racism
Bigotry
Mysogony
Homophobia
Xenophobia
All you see is our differences
World leader
Joke
Laughing stock
Ignorance
Pride
Insensitivity
Feelings
Trust
Love
Greatness
Honesty
Trust
Lyrics
How can I believe you ever cared about me?
or
How can I believe you ever cared for me? - too romance oriented?
All I ever was was a means to an end - not even worthy of the title friend
How do we heal from where we are?
How did it get this far?
How did we go from feeling on top to
feeling our feelings and scars?
You goad me and fear me
I can’t express clearly
the depth of our disfunction
Am I running away
Or running to you?
You want me to stay?
We’re coming unglued
Concepts
execution
masc singer/femme rapper
all instruments from my voice
try singing cords with the root, 3rd and 5th having their own track
create the cords via piano
split into root, 3rd and 5th tracks
sing each on a different track
You gave me a home but i don't feel welcome
alluding to slave owners supplying slaves homes so they could protect their investment
Should the song only be about the plight of Blacks in America or should I mix it up and make it about my own relationships as well?
Inability to communicate
feeling my feelings are valid yet having no one understand them or why i'm feeling them
Being pegged as a rage monster
feeling like I'm criticized for things other people do and often are worse about than me with impunity
America loves everything about us but us