for thinking that the work that we do us unimportant, and busy work and largely for ourselves, and myopic and stupid and extra and unnecessary, and pretentious. Who are we really impacting? I feel like I'm spending so much time doing things with people I don't like, doing things I think are unimportant, all the while being judged for it, and me feeling guilty for not having the character to either a) perform at a high level despite my misgivings,or b) step away