"Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock"

Character- Destruction, build up

Communication

Dangers of ignorance

Darkness and light

Desire to escape

Individual versus Society

Loneliness as destructive force

Overcoming- weakness

Leonard felt that he had no one in his life that cared about him

Leonard felt like he had no friends

when Leonard did have someone who cared about him, (Lauren, Walt, Herr Silverman.etc) he felt like they didn't.

Leonard felt if he killed himself no one in the world would care he was gone

Leonard knew everyone at school thought he was weird and he felt like no one cared about him, at home, in the community or at school

Leonard wanted to killhimself

Leonards mom didn't look at the sign Leonard was sending her when he wanted to kill himself

Leonard thought there was no other way to fix things other then killing himself.

the only time people commented on Leonards change in behaviour, was when he shaved his head and it was too late for him to change his mind

The people around him they didn't notice he wanted to kill himself

Leonard was bullied and felt like he had no point to be on the earth so he wanted to escape.

Leonard didn't always want to kill himself

Leonard overcame wanting to kill himself

Herr Silverman showed him life is worth living

the people around him made him feel worthless. (rumours, bullying, etc)

From being bullied, having a distant mother, his dad being gone, and having no friends at school lead him to killing himself

If someone talked to Leonard sooner he might not have considered killing himself

Leonard could have gotten help to feel better but he didn't want any

Leonard could've talked to his mom about her being too distant

Leonard met Lauren and that helped him change his mind about killing himself

Leonard goes back and forth on the idea of killing himself

Leonard decides to not kill himself or Asher

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Leonard talks about telling his mom about Asher sexually assaulting him "I think I tried to tell Linda once, but she refused to believe it and changed the subject." (226)

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Herr Silverman states "Not letting the world destroy you. That's a daily battle." (266)

Leonard thinks about what happened the night he wanted to kill himself "I sit up and think, What the hell happened yesterday?" (280)

One of Leonards teachers say to him "I'm hearing reports that you've been acting strangely today. Is that true?"

Leonards mom thinks him wanting to kill himself is a prank and doesn't take it seriously. she says
“I told him you do this when you miss your mother, so i came home, Leo. I always come home when you pull one of these pranks.”(306)

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Leonard thinks to himself;
“I feel like I’m broken-- like I don't fit together anymore. Like there’s no more room for me in the world or something. Like I’ve overstayed my welcome here on earth, and everyone’s trying to give me hints about that constantly.” (264)

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Talking about his mom, Leonard says "How much he told her about what happened. If she even gave a shit." (283)

Leonard talks about Asher bullying him and says "When I made it clear that he'd have to give me regular black eyes--wounds that would get people asking a lot of questions--to keep it going, thats when it stopped" (226)

Leonard tells Herr Silverman "Your class is probably the only thing keeping me alive." (142)

Leonard says "Maybe I really should have killed myself." (281)

Leonard says "My P-38 is still pointed at the primary target, but I'm starting to realize that I'm not going to complete this mission." (233)

Leonard says "What if Herr Silverman was wrong about my future?" (284)

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Leonards only friend was Asher but he lost him as a friend.

Leonard explains "I didn't want to lose my friend. Haven't you ever done things you didn't want to do just to keep a friend?" (225)

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When Herr Silverman tries to help Leonard he thinks to himself
“ Options are important. So is an exit plan.” (250)