shit happens (expenses (crossfit, sport - 350 shek, 10500 options, 2000 to…
shit happens (expenses, I feel fucking stressed, but the week and month are almost over, now I need to double down these remaining 4 hours - understand the simulator code, AWS API. Then, I need to look at appliance... What could be wrong there? why can't I see console? I can try once again to restart everything.. But fuck.. I'll ask for dom once again.. Something is not right with this dom.. Or this c400
Regarding Michael training: Agent, cloudFS, cti documents.. meetings I did - obviously same meatings. I can move my tasks to Michael from the backlog. , Dina: She doesn't respond to my proposals. I can't be partner with her: no money she brings, no attention to my family. She doesn't want to discuss anything with me. + that deja vu. After operation, if there's no change from her side, than she should leave.. I will be OK - more time to gain value. And she will be OK - she has some money, payroll, and rich parents. She doesn't want to be my partner - than she's free to do whatever she wants., budget, this motherfucker doesn't have my phone # for 5 fucking years. We don't speak at all, but he didn't want to invest another 3 minutes to talk without distructions.. Fuck him.. Never call this fucking looser again.. Better - forget about this looser. I don't want to help him. I helped him many times. Enough. If someone doesn't want my values - it's his choise, but I don't want either. What for? Negative, looser, talking about slavory at work, alcoholic, depression, stoner... Fuck! go away from my life.. why did i invest in a call? Welll, it's the last time for sure. It's very sad, but it's as it is., Nothing bad with that Dina talks to different companies, especially big companies. Personal connection is better that connection on excel.. Which u can put typos or smth.. if u want.., when it's important. Also, if u befriend with Mira, that she has money through Meni u have a greater chance for salary. If u think it's not important - than u should leave . Fuck them. U can look for places with a lot of space which will want to pilot co-working, make internet, chairs, and start advertising. Look what we-work are doing. Build a concept /plan, make a community and maintain the community -held meetups , lectures. BUild a DB of people, investors, etc..
Meet these guys like Leonid or others for a coffee, I don't like that every time it's time to write some code, it's a task! Or if I fail to fix properly i need to know the flow of the code.. I feel like I'm an extention of support.. It was the same in CP and I don't need to waste my time. After holidays is the time. Unless I see if the situation changes. This simulation project is the only place to code + learn design, but i leaving this fucking place, with fewer tasks I can focus more on learning. Put ego aside and just learn stuff. Also, learn to get out of comfort zone. It's much less interesting, but more challenging and provide more opportunities. And it's just till the end of the year :7,8,9, 10 mostly on vac, then 11 I can tell that I'm leaving. So it's a few months to learn the buiseness here, to manage Michael., what happens with Dina is shit. I want a good relationship, but from time to time I say smth that she immideatly blows to a scandal. It's impossible to live like that. her mother worries, she worries more because of it, she doesn't do anything with her life. She doesn't participate in rent, any expences. She still manages parents money. she's not an individual. she's her parents. It's nothing wrong but I want a woman, not her parents. I want her to focus on our life, but she tries to save money to her parents. she will be not beigel. And i don't want it, I want a woman to build our house., calm down, schedule time for work, plan and fuck it. U have your own plans. Ido will be in charge, it's good - I'm doing what my mgr wants, it was a 1st time she went out with my parents and she didn't use it to make better connections, she couldn't refuse, told her mother about it. She told Alon to go away. She's not interested in me. She's just using me, and what I provide., I need to talk to her and decide what to do next - or she will change her life to build our future, or she's Kreimer and doesn't want to be my 2nd part. She will need to pay rent, we'll define a budget for food. She will go to coach or psychologist. She will need to invest money in this. She will need to separate her life from parents. It's ridicilous., Well, I love Dina, but we can't live together. We can't agree on anything. I'd better be alone and will live quetly. My love will come - I'm not a bad guy... I'll be going to different places, working on myself and will meet my love somehow.. It should come. Maybe Dina will also make a switch, who knows? I should know exactly all my expenses and should not cross them as I'll cross them anyway., life is short. I'd better learn every day on work smth. - udemy etc. practice python, programming. Now I waste too much time on distractions. I should practice discipline - not-distruction mornings, there so many people that are not nice actually. Or is it me? that I can't communicate with them? I don't know ... But fuck them all .Really, I don't give a damn, life is too short to think about these morons.. Who are all these guys: they are fucking loosers, they will work as slaves all their lives, they are stupid and not interesting... ones who have value also have warmth, and these are people I want to be around , talk to, No time for stupid things - make my work fast and go home)